comeback?

Hi. So, it has been a loooooonnnnnnnnnnngggggg time. I miss my old days where I've so many free times to spend, doing things that i like. I'm not missing an action. Well as an adult, i have to start looking for a job. And yes i got it. BUT, it was a nightmare for me. Now i know how nasty and cruel this real life. (baru tahu ke?heh..) I've no problem with the company's system but the way they manage it and the way they do their business are totally make my rebel spirit rushed through my veins. Dan ramai cakap, "come on la Aten, that's the nature of business and sales." Oh yeah? Sorry and come on la dude, that's not my nature.I'm not saying that i'm totally a pure, innocent or angelic person but how can i sit calmly, crossing my arms and legs, watching all the LIES? "kalau itu ini tak boleh aten, macam mana nak maju dalam bisnes?" i don't give a **** man, as long as i know i'm doing the right thing. dan itu tak termasuk lagi cerita betapa terdesaknya seorang manager ni try to take over our mind,body and soul (amboi, ok itu hiperbola.haha) dengan mengindoktrinasikan 'duit adalah segala-galanya'.

"Dengan duit, kau orang boleh buat macam-macam, boleh beli segala-galanya. Even cinta dan kasih sayang mak bapak kau orang pun boleh beli. Kau orang boleh ada berapa banyak orang gaji yang kau mau. Macam aku. Letak je kaki atas meja, dia orang bukak stokin. Ada lipas je dalam rumah aku, dia orang mati " blablabla 

Bukan nak cakap aku pejuang cinta tegar tapi ini sudah lebih. Macam hedonisme pun ada. Nak cerita panjang pun tak guna. Tapi kalau kau orang ada dalam situasi aku, rasa nak baling kasut je dekat uncle sorang ni. Mungkin aku juga ada silap pemahaman niat sebenar yang cuba disampaikan. Atau mungkin emosi dan jiwa memberontak aku silap tempat dan masa. Tapi cukuplah.

I QUIT& MOVING ON.

At this point of time, i feel like doing nothing but just focus on my craft/art business plan.That's the only thing i'm passionate about. Tapi lepas baca "Why artist & illustrator should get a job". I'm neither an artist nor an illustrator, but it is wisely written and gave me a "pang" a lil bit. haha. So again, start looking for a new job. 

Semoga dipermudahkanNya :)

p/s: PRU13? =_=   

Si Pemalas

Salam peeps..

Ahhh..Lama dah tak update. I have a chronic disease which is so-called MALAS! hahaSo here are a few updates. Requested plushies from my supportive friends. See the big and fat owlie? hehe Kind of freaky ha? :) my sis said, there's something wrong with her eyes. and the optimus prime (if you can see), i'm not really good in designing superheroes or warrior characters. but i just love him :)

tote bag. already did all the coloring stuff. tapi cheq still tak puas hati laa. something missing. bad color combinations. i think have to bold the outline some more. sadly, my black ink already dried. awaiting to shop for new markers. yeahhhhh. and remember how i craving for the stained sharpie marker set? TADAAAAA.. my bro got it for me. orang bagi kita terima. ye tak? haha tapi set ni tak ada warna hitam. huhu..anyway, super excited to conteng banyak-banyak lagi. ^-^

TC!

yeahh

Currently, in process of doodling on a tote bag. Requested from my very own best friend.

Lama dah tak men-doodle ni. Karat juga la otak. But the hardest part for me is Coloring! Im very bad in matching up the colors. Oh.. Hopefully she will like it :)

TC! people.

melancholy of me

this gonna be a rare post.

this is not my style to write "my feeling" in my blog.

......

this week is my super saddest and hectic week.

we were surprised by new born bunnies last week.

we were over excited. I delayed most of my work because of them.

They were five of them. And i can't resist their cuteness.

But.. our happiness doesn't last longer. Two days later, their mom died.

So we started to look after the babies. and.. it was not an easy task.

Since they were too small. It was difficult to find a suitable milk to feed them.

we were trying so many ways even do some research, called a veterinarian for advices.

Unfortunately, they started dying one by one.

And three of them were dying in my hand.

I can see how they were trying, gasping for the air for the last time.

oh God.. can you feel how i feel? 

and my tears can be stopped anymore.

(ibu cakap: dah ajal diaorang, redha jela..)

now, only one left. But she/he is very weak and unstable.

hope, she/he can stay strong.

 I also learned & keep reminding myself that,

# tak ade satu pun dapat menandingi ciptaan Allah. 

tak kesah la susu replacement secanggih, semahal mana pun..

never be the same as the original one.

SORRY. grammar, ayat terabur habis ke laut.

serabut..huhu.. :(

TC!

being a kid.. again

do you remember what it feels like to be young?

yahh.. playing with clay somehow reminds me of how it feels. hee

ingat lagi dulu jalan-jalan dekat mall, merayu dekat ibu nak PlayDoh.

PlayDoh hot stuff zaman tu.

nak yang set besaaaar tu. boleh buat pizza, aiskrim, burger.

ibu tak nak layan.

jalan lambat-lambat belakang ibu dengan muka rebel (kecik-kecik dah pandai).

Ibu tak larat nak layan, at last beli jugak.

tapi set yang kecik ja. *jadilah daripada tak ada.  ^_^

so, here are some clay charms that i made.

it's just to kill my tiredness after sewing.

i'm still a noob.

lots of things need to learn.

and youtube will be your best Guru :) Yup

now, back to work.

TC guys! :)